but becoz..?


i must b borin u guys wit details dat may seem irrelevant to ur daily lives.. i cant help it.. not dat i dun wanna talk to any of u, juz dat i cant say it.. my RESURRECTION is the only plc i can let out everythin.. *SiGh*

my sis got herself a Nokia 3230 recently.. gd for u SiS.. u've been wantin a new phone ryt? stil in search of a new job.. applied to all sorta companies & yet to receive news.. im bored to death ryt now, here at hm.. waitin for the tym to reach 6pm.. mittin one of my pals, wanna go chill at east coast..

quittin smokin is givin me migrane..! will not give up.. already quit clubbin [erm.. i think..] & drinkin.. one of those resolutions before the New Year shits.. i noticed i'm shrinkin.. must be agein really fast here.. losin my appetite, losin my temper, losin my mood.. losin everythin..

gd luck to FaiZaL on ur new luv life.. glad to hear ur movin on..

i'm njoyin myself deejayin almost every nyt.. be it by myself or wit dJ RuSHy, everytym i go onair, i feel lyk i'm in another plc.. whr ppl listen to me & not me listenin to dem.. a change for once..

i've updated my POETRY PAGE so do check it out.. i shall leave u guys now wit my pic fr JB..


my QuRaiSyaH..


aYuL & her 'MuM'


mE & MuM


aYuL & MuM


uS @ one of the kampung..


mE & aYuL..

he wasn't man enuf for me


gone.. he's gone.. hehe~ told u peepz.. these kindda guys r lyk everywhr nowadays.. no regrets, no tears, no turnin back for me.. it's so ez.. u lie, u get out of my life.. dat's it, short & simple.. thank goodness i wuzn't serious wit him or else i'll only end up wit another chipped-off heart.. hehehe~

it's lyk dis.. i'm not tryin to say dat i wuz playin ard wit his feelins.. juz dat i told him i wuzn't ready for a relationship & he didn't seem lyk the type you can get serious wit [pls read my blog entry dated november 11] but he said dat 'he luvs me' & all those mushy stuffs.. wateva..! so, ok fine.. i let him haf a taste of wat it's lyk wen u lie to DeE in a relationship.. he lied A LOT & dat wuz enuf for me to show him the door..

- bike? i didn't c ur licence.
- ex-gf died 2 yrs ago? u broke up 4 mths back.
- bike accident? more lyk 'i fell off my bed'.
- parents divorcin? already divorced.
- dad in Bali? mayb dad in Batam.
- credit cards? get urself an ATM card first.

wat do u guys get wen u do dis?

i dun..


i'm not werkin animore but im wuz thinkin of lukin for a job dat's relevant to my course.. i'm reali not a theory person.. hehe~ tot it wud b better if i found a job dat's in the same capacity as my course so at least i've got the experience..

found sumone hu is 'in luv' wit me.. wateva.. dun reali trust those words until proven.. dunno if he's serious or juz being a playa [if u noe wat i mean..] some call him DaNieL or alternatively NaSiR, 27, stubborn old jackass, mummy's 'boy', a lady's man & kips tellin people 'nie bini aku..' [dis is my wife..] havent got a picture of him to show but will try to get it soon.. he doesnt reali lyk takin pictures of himself.. damm him.. well, i juz take wateva dat comes.. if he's not up to it also den i'm sori baby, out the door u go.. the feelin of lykin a guy is slowly wearin off me.. haha..!

i'm disappointed wit tmr's plan.. RaJa said we're not goin out tmr & FiE hasnt called or reply me back.. found out the TK guys r plannin on jalan raya next saturday but i've yet to call anione of dem.. MuM's not goin to Uncle Rosli's open hse tmr so i guess it's 'Stay Home Saturday' for me unless ZiE has plans.. hhmmm...

gotta clarify sumthin.. people myt tink dat i'm reali a Black Widow but i'm not.. happens dat i've got loads of guy frens.. dat's all.. it's been dat way eversince i wuz a kid so dun get the wrong idea aite..? ryt.. leavin now, talk later..

cheats, lies & deceits...


actually i already typed out my previous entries but sumhow, blogger wuz under maintainence, didn't save my entries & all wuz lost.. damm it..

had my hair cut tink abt 1 or 2 wks back.. dyed it red [dun ask..!] & i luk lyk a freakin witch.. talk abt halloween..!

aniwae, met FaiZaL & LukMaN last friday.. he came to take his baju kurung fr me.. we slacked & chatted a while at my void deck & after wat seemed lyk 15 minutes, they left.. no comments..

hey, i've already added the september babies photo & the 'legendary' cursed 3-2-3.. hehehe~ the neverendin haunt..

i've yet to jalan raya & not sure wen we [the whole family] r goin to do so.. it's a really freakin different Raya for me.. *SiGh*

aniwae, wats wit my blog topic u say..? well wat else..? they cheat, they lie & they r full of deceit..
- FiE >> tot u wanted the green baju kurung? i painstakingly kept it for u.. u didnt reply my msgs, didnt return my calls & ended up i gave it to FaiZaL.
- aNDiE >> disappeared. period.
- DaNNy >> disappeared [wit my 50 geez]. damm it..

hhmm... juz found out sumthin.. my lyf is revolvin ard too many ppl by the name of FaiZaL.. gotta STAY [very far, far] AWAY fr dem.. i can go on but i betta not.. peace out..

Selamat Hari Raya


Selamat Hari Raya to y'all...

Thorough sadness fills my heart, as the takbir is chanted in the air..
Different is today, now my MuM is far, far away..
As families walk thru the streets visitin their loved ones, here i am longin for MuM..
missin HIM too, the one i adore..
Strong as i am, i cannot lie..
SEPASANG KURUNG HIJAU..
BERAKHIRNYA CINTA INI..