its 'HisHaM'


yeap.. i asked him how his name was spelled.. khehehe~ so silly of me..

i decided to do something EXTRAORDINARY yesterday.. i picked out a song to sing..! believe it or not..! ahahaha... well, they clapped & cheered [thank you.. *bLusH*] but then they all fell silent.. made me feel so awkward.. but on the whole, we all enjoyed ourselves, didn't we? i look foward to meetin these bunch of fun people again.. *SmiLeZ*

reached Bedok at abt 12.15.. kindda late considerin that i made a curfew of 11.00 for myself.. took us almost 20 minutes to find the Central Square carpark entrance.. it's all sHaM's fault..! khehehe~ made us walk round & round the whole place..! ouh yeah.. we manage to take a snap before we left the carpark.. khehehe~



hey..! don't get the wrong ideas guys.. it's just a picture, ok? *WiNkZ*

ouh & by the way, "SELAMAT TAHUN BARU" to all my Muslim friends..

Happy Chinese New Year


to all my friends celebratin this occasion.. *SmiLeZ*

did i tell you guys about how i scored 5 points [or was that 2 points..?] for my group in my TPSW class? yes i did score.. by reading the 'Peter Piper' tongue twister..! khehehe..~ i loved it..! ouh by the way, i passed my SBS paper with a 'C'..! Yeah.! i'm now eagerly waitin for my HMC result.. i know i've already passed that paper but i wanna know my grade.. can't wait..!

anyway, i wanna THANK [with sarcasm..] my dear big sister aBBie for draggin me to her boyfriend [BeN] & friends' chalet yesterday.. so much for the "HELP-ME-I-DON'T-KNOW-ANYONE!" excuse.. i really thought you didn't know anyone there.. YOU SET ME UP..! how could you..? how could you match make me with your friend, HiSyaM [or HisHaM.. however his name is spelled..!] you sneaky pair?! not that i'm angry but seriously i was SO embarrassed..! & to make things worse, your friends ALL knew about it includin HiSyaM/HisHaM..! you kept me in the dark..! I am so gonna wring your necks..! but he's a nice chap though.. sweet.. funny.. well in short, he makes a gd friend.. *WiNkZ*

i can expect a lot of assumptions from you guys who've read that entry at the top.. i know some will think that i'm datin him, some will think that i'm a flirt.. etc.. etc.. etc.. WHATEVER.. i have a clear conscience.. anyway, i'll be back.. gotta go change.. he's fetchin me at 1915 hrs later & we're gonna go meet up with aBBie, BeN & their friends for KARAOKE-ing..! khehehe..~

sky's kindda blue..


went to IKEA the day before yesterday.. bought some stuff for the room.. i love how it looks now.. much neater than before.. maybe that's what happen when you feel like crap & you need to distract yourself.. it cheered me up though.. *SmiLeZ*

met up with the person whose feelings i've hurt so bad.. i don't wanna mention names.. well, if you already know who then it's best you keep it to yourself.. i feel bad over what happened but i can't force myself.. it feels better now that we've cleared the air but it doesn't feel the same.. i think i need time to get over this..

had a fun day in TPSW class yesterday.. my assignment's on VOCATION[S] & i think i'm gonna do about Radio Producer/Presenter.. well, maybe.. i bought 2 double cheeseburgers 1 each for aLeXiS & myself for dinner but the girl who served me gave me an extra cheeseburger..! khehehehe~ on my way back home from school, i bumped into aDi, one of the arab guys i got to know 5 mths back @ cHeeky mOnkey's.. kHaLeeD's couz.. hhmmm.. haven't seen them for quite sometime [& I DON'T WISH TO SEE THEM AGAIN..!]..

gonna be busy with the school assignments on hand.. i haven't start my write up with aBg FiQuE for On D' Radio since he's SO busy.. what do you expect? he's 'Singapore's Fav Guy', isn't he? whatever.. but i miss him too.. ouh & i need to be more active with On D' Radio very soon.. haven't been on air for quite a while now & i miss it..

skies shall be blue.. i know it will..

sorry & miserable.. pick 'em up


i feel really bad.. i told dat sumone the truth & dat person didn't take it good..

damn it.. F^CK..!

i really haf no intention to hurt your feelin.. i swear..! i juz can't be wit you.. not bcuz of your background or your past or wateva it is dat you assumed.. i juz can't.. i lyk you.. i really do but i don't have the feelings for you..

thanx sTeVe for dinner & the organizer insert..
thanx aLeXis for comfortin me yesterday..
thanx to "Breakfast at Tiffany's" for lullin me to sleep..

i'm LOVIN' it..!


i LOVE TPSW class..!
i LOVE mR NaiDu..!
i LOVE the way he speaks..!

well i juz luv everythin abt it.. it's as cool as TDMC class.. no.. WAY, WAY much cooler than TDMC.. khehehehe..~ happens dat the cute guy in TDMC class is in TPSW as well & unfortunately, he's in the same HMC class wit aLeXiS.. darn it.. oh well.. he's prolly younger den me.. not into younger guys.. sorry..!

juz a breakdown of the abbreviation:

HMC - Human & Mass Communications
TDMC - The Dynamics of Mass Communications
TPSW - Techniques of Professional Speaking & Writing

aniwae, i'm runnin away fr sumthin dat i shud face up to.. i noe it shud be dealt wit as early as possible but i juz dunno how to.. i haf to tell DAT SUMONE how i truly feel & not lead dat person on.. nOpe.. dun worri sTeVie.. it's not u.. *WiNkZ*

"HAPPY 3rd YEAR ANNIVERSARY TO MY BaBy GerL & FiZZ..!"

ok, i shall go now.. gotta tink of "iDa the Destroyer & Friends" series & prolly go disturb GreGGy at the same tym.. peace out..

reunion


started my 1st class for the new term yesterday.. kindda lyk a reunion.. there was HaaS, sHikiN, HaZeL, TeRRi, syaHiDaH, aiSyaH & me.. ohh.. & some other familiar faces.. *WiNkZ* i lyk the class cuz mR JaiLani's the lecturer & i tink he's cool..

now i'm at hm, tinkin over some stuffs.. i have a lot of confessions & rejections to make.. *SiGh*.. well i'll write in again.. MuM brought a fren hm.. gonna go make tea.. later guys..

lady rain..


it has been a wet, wet week.. very sad..

i realised i've gained 6 kilos [NO...!!!] & now i'm fat & ugly.. not forgettin jobless & helpless [make dat HOPEless..] i already put myself on a strict 'no-chocolate' diet & i'm tryin not to eat too much..

it's really tough lukin for a job everywhr.. luck is really not on my side.. stupid of me.. really.. badly in nid of a job ryt now.. can't stand askin BaBa for money everytym i nid it.. it pisses him off & i noe it.. anyone can help me..? please..?

in confusion now actually.. i dunno wat i'm supposed to do wit all these guys in my lyf.. i wanna live w/o them.. can i..? mayb i shud haf a heart to heart talk wit FiE.. settle things once & for all.. i noe MY BABY GERL wud lyk dat.. khehehe..

oh.. & btw, juz to make things clear, I AIN'T NOBODY'S SCANDAL AITE.. get dis clear in dat small brain of urs.. u shud noe hu u r..

exam.. [deja vu]


sittin for my last paper later at 2pm.. head's spinnin, stomach's achin, eye's stoned.. wat cud be worst..? headphones on, hoobastank's playin.. *SiGh* tryin to adapt to exams once again.. i noe it's too late cuz it's the last paper but i've gotta get used to it cuz i've got another 3 more terms to go thru..

last saturday's meetin wuz a breather for me.. i mean after the rough rides, i wuz really lukin foward to the meetin.. well more lyk meetin familiar faces dat i've not meet before & not met for a long tym.. hhmmm... wuz assigned as an editor together wit TiaRa.. gonna be fun..! my BaBy gerL & me..

things lukin fine here at home & i'm beginnin to luv it.. no matter wat, FAMILY COMES FIRST..

lemme juz gif a recap of the event dat started my misery till now..

230805 wuz the date dat he broke off the relationship.. i dunno y but i wuz SO INTO HIM.. mayb bcuz of the things dat we've been thru together dat made the relationship very, very special & meaningful to me.. i wuz SO ready to settle down wit him cuz i've almost totally changed myself for the better for my family, for him & myself.. i changed my job for stability reasons, i stopped my bad habits & picked up gd ones for the relationship but in the end it didnt werk out..

bcuz i wuz so into the relationship
- my job got affected & i left..
- my BEST FREN OF 5 YRS gave up on me..
- i almost wrecked my family ties..
- i made frens worried..
- i went into isolation, kept late nyts sumtyms not slpin for 2 days straight, comin hm late almost everyday, cried my eyes out to slp..

in short i wuz damagin my health.. now i only haf my family, close frens & my skul.. do you think i can keep it together?

Happy 2006 Everyone..


juz wanna wish everyone a very happy 2006.. may the new yr bring happier moments & events to everyone..

things r not ridin dat well for me.. i wanna go back but my stubborness is juz being itself.. i miss MuM but i miss aYuL the most.. damm it..

i'm havin my 1st paper at 2pm later.. i'm supposed to be slpin but here i am updatin my blog.. i wanna continue but i tink i'll do dat in the later part of the day.. my brain suddenly froze on me.. nid to hang out my laundry aniwae.. so many things yet so little tym & so little brain activity.. update again soon..