the hospital stay


yeah.. the hospital stay.. first things first, i fell off 2 flights of stairs & NO it WAS NOT A MOTORBIKE ACCIDENT.. jeez.. after fallin the 1st short flight, i tried to stand up & walk ALTHOUGH i knew my feet was already in pain.. as i tried to place my right foot on the 2nd long flight of stairs, i realized i couldn't feel my feet & tumbled all the way down.. now, being the stubborn me, i tried standin up again & i fell just as i got up so in the end, i had to crawl all the way to the drain to get my sandals.. after like abt 5 seconds, THEN i felt sharp pains in my heels & ankles..

i was swearin & cursin & makin a big scene at the A&E because of the stupid pain.. at the same time i was tryin to keep myself awake because i felt groggy & there was a sudden urge to close my eyes & just sleep.. well, the doctors & nurses weren't takin me seriously too when i told them i was in great pain so i had to grab their attention.. at long last, they did & sent me for x-rays & at the end of it all, one nurse told me i had to be warded.. damn it..

so, for 13 bloody days, i stayed in that bloody hospital, almost killed myself with boredom & hospital food..! now, i'm at home, still bored & at the verge of depression.. why..? because when i'm not doin anythin, some things come into my mind & i start ponderin abt them & some of these thoughts upset me.. guess 2006 is not such a bright year for me as i expected..

my swollen & bruised feet..

finally home..


yes.. after 13 [DREADFUL] days in the hospital, i'm finally home for good..! only God knows how much i hate being in this full body cast.. *SiGh* thank you to all my friends who took the time to visit me durin my stay in the hospital namely aZMaN, aDiBaH, aLeXiS, sTeVe, FeZZy dear, eFNi darlin, YaSin & the list goes on.. i swore i could die of boredom if i stayed another day there..!

a SPECIAL BIG thank you to aZMaN who came the moment he got the news that i was warded & stayed with me that fateful mornin until my family came & subsequently comin almost everyday, keepin me away from the hospital food, keepin me company until my bedtime.. the sweet thing.. well, he is another story..

too bad none of my girls were in s'pore.. oh well..

my studies crushed, my work affected.. darn it.. i'll talk about my hospital stay another time.. seriously, not in the mood for anythin especially when you can't move or do much of whatever.. some pictures.. enjoy..

figurin it out


yeah.. things look good on my side so far.. but i don't know what's got into me the last few days.. so full of angst..! the slightest of change just makes me wanna scream..!! thank you aZMaN for the company & emotional comfort you provided.. it was a burden, i know, eventhough you never say or show it.. anyway, changin jobs to cater to my school.. can't take the pressure at work.. almost gave up on school assignments but i had to do it with aZMaN's "help"..

please don't go back to the old you.. it's hard to be grounded again but you have to try harder.. you know i'll be here to help but don't do this to yourself again.. everythin is going well for you.. don't spoil it.. there are people who care [& that includes me..] please..

life is like a rollercoaster, full of ups & downs.. knowin you, the pessimistic person you are, please don't let the downs of life bring you down.. live life to the fullest & take everyday as it is.. "Practice What You Preach", my dear.. again, i'm here if you need someone..

i can't believe that i would be mentioned in a stranger's blog.. geez.. me? a "MALAYSIAN malay"?? what?? i'm not tryin to say that i'm VERY patriotic but i just can't accept it when someone changes my nationality so easily, just that like that.. ick..

leavin on a happy note, sayang kau..

patience is virtue..


wOOhOO..! although yesterday we had a brief meet-up, it was enjoyable all thanks to you girls.. THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR MAKIN YESTERDAY HAPPEN..!

s|z.. so sorry if aZMaN was givin you a hard time yesterday.. he meant no harm.. just fun & laughter.. [actually he couldn't take it that you said he looked like 'LURCH'.. hehehe~] thank you also to you for givin me the patience to not blow up in front of e-BoO.. yes i was frustrated at her but somehow indirectly, you gave me the vibe to just stop, think & give her another chance..

a'Ne.. you were beautiful.. don't worry about what that had happened.. it's just another phase i guess.. things are gonna be ok.. trust me.. oh yeah.. aZMaN calls you 'Cark Klie' now.. hehehe~ you should know why..!

e-BoO.. i was angry.. VERY angry.. but i tried to look at things in another point of view.. thank you for makin it to dinner at a short notice.. i really appreciate that.. i'm sorry for habourin angry thoughts & feelins towards you.. i don't now & i mean it.. btw, just for info, i called you a 'BISKUT' & aZMaN's stuck with that term for you.. ooopps.. just that you are like a biscuit.. sekejap ade, sekejap takde.. hehehe..

oh yes.. patience.. i knew you will change.. i knew we'll be together one day.. i waited & it is gonna pay off.. soon.. pretty soon.. no matter what happens, i'll be behind you..

SINGLES_OUT 3RD ANNIVERSARY

15


FeZZy - 15th Jan
FiE - 15th March
aZMaN - 15th Dec

the ONLY 3 guy friends who i treasure & love SO MUCH have the same birth date..! hahahaha..!

FeZZy, the unknown so far, is my much-loved sweetie friend [or in my term: my free-time friend.. don't get the wrong idea ah..! hehehe~].. we used to chill out together durin our poly days in our spare time [diff polys you see.. he's from SP..] & made each other laugh silly with our crazy antics..! no one can understand us because we're always misunderstood as datin partners maybe because how we joked around & address each other.. none of my friends know about him actually & i'm gonna just leave it as that.. just that we came in contact again recently thanks to eFNi BeBeH..! thank you..! miss my FeZZy so much..!

FiE, my pillar of support.. we're in an unofficial relationship & right now we're "together" for 3 years & 3 months already [inclusive of today's date..] hehehe... always there to lend me a shoulder to cry on, a pair of patient listenin ears & memorable dates.. i hurt you sometimes with things that i share with you without realisin it & i'm really sorry.. don't think i took you for granted because i didn't.. you know i still love you..

aZMaN i don't have to introduce.. tak payah lah aku repeat banyak-banyak kali.. kau tau kan.. kau cacat macam mana pun, pekak macam mana pun, biadap macam mana pun, tetap aku sayang kau tau.. the one guy who always brightens my day with or without his presence.. always in my thoughts & prayers wherever i go.. my motivation in all the things i do, be it work or school.. the sweetest giant of a man that i love so much..!

anyway, HAPPY 3RD ANNIVERSARY TO MY SinGLes_OuT GERLS..! 3 years, my dear girls.. i love you all..!

i can't wait to get away on my birthday..! hahaha..!~ only a handful of people know where i wanna go & with whom i'm going with for my short SIESTA [did i use the right word..?] & those who know, please don't leak out on the location.. i'm really excited about going..! i'm sure the place is as lovely like the pictures i've seen of the it..

i'm so full of LOVE tonight..!