THANK YOU SO MUCH


first & foremost, a very big thank you to everyone who remembered my birthday.. also an extra big thank you to my beloved relatives & especially my very own family who took the time, effort & trouble to come over at such short notice for the supposedly 'surprise' birthday gatherin.. thank you to sTeVe who was also there to join my family for the gatherin.. *sMiLeZ*



i was really taken aback by the number of people who turned up.. i really, really appreciate it a lot.. this is goin to be one memorable birthday.. not only am i celebratin my birthday as a single for the 1st time, it is also the 1st [& only..!] time i'm celebratin in a cast..!

this year, half of my birthday wish came true.. my dearest, most beloved best girl friend came to visit.. gosh ..! you don't know how surprised, shocked & happy i was..! there i was, sittin in my room, tryin to accept the fact that iDaDi hates my guts & suddenly my mum came in & told me i had a guest.. huh? i wasn't expectin anyone but there she was..! standing right in front of me..! i've missed her so much..! I LOVE YOU, DI.. & i promise i won't hurt you again..



not only that, my best friend from secondary school, aZiLaH, whom i've lost contact with for 6 freakin years remembered my birthday too & we chatted for hours..! i've missed her too..! the girls that i love are back in my life & that's worth more than any gifts put together.. *MuAkZ..!*

i'm still yearnin for the other half of my wish but i guess it won't be granted.. oh well.. you can't get everythin you wish for.. pictures are up in the links section.. help yourself..

heaven knows..


guess what i did yesterday? I WENT OUT..! khehehe... & i literally mean leave my house..! it was pure heaven i tell you.. being cooped up in the house for 26 days, gettin the chance to leave the house was like spendin a day at the spa, great & refreshin.. a friend of mine took me out to watch a pementasan at a community centre, half an hours walk from my place.. met a couple of familiar faces there but didn't really get a chance to go up to them..

anyway, i did a survey of my own & i found out that most 20/21 year old girls & guys that i know of are thinkin way ahead of their age.. i mean their maturity level are different compared to the 20/21's a few years back.. i'm really amazed.. goes to show how much exposure & nuturin can actually make a person..

i've got to stop all these ludicrousness between me & younger guys.. seriously, it's gettin out of hand.. but i have to figure out how.. hhmmm..

oh yes.. gd luck to those takin part in the Perdana this year.. all the best guys..!

date check: 1 week


YES..! 1 more week to my check up & 8 more days to my 23rd..! khehehe~ i'm countin down as i do every year although i don't think it's much of a celebration this year.. maybe i could get brother FFiZ to sing me the "Go Shorty" birthday song that he sings to me every birthday.. well, almost.. khehehe~ anyone willin to celebrate with me..?

anyway, i bruised my knees & the bone in my right knee is just so distorted that it is protudin out from the cap.. ick..! not only are the knees bruised, they are kind of scraped too.. jeez.. i'm going to have ugly knees..!

good news i received yesterday.. my aBg dZuL & YaNNy are gettin engaged on the 18th of june this year.. congrats guys..! the product of my matchmakin.. oh the lovely couple.. how i envy them.. *SiGh* well, my time will come one day & hopefully it'll turn out as lovely & everlastin as theirs.. [dreamin of Beauty & the Beast..] khehehehe~

the phenomena of my 'Fatal Attraction' to younger guys struck me again of late.. again i ask.. "What's with me & younger guys..?" a question that will never stop hauntin me..

fact.. or just bluffin..?

Arena (known to self and others) adaptable, energetic, friendly, silly	Blind Spot (known only to others) accepting, caring, cheerful, complex, confident, dependable, dignified, extroverted, happy, independent, kind, knowledgeable, logical, loving, mature, modest, nervous, observant, responsive, searching, self-conscious, sensible, sentimental, spontaneous, trustworthy, warm, witty
Façade (known only to self) able	Unknown (known to nobody) bold, brave, calm, clever, giving, helpful, idealistic, ingenious, intelligent, introverted, organised, patient, powerful, proud, quiet, reflective, relaxed, religious, self-assertive, shy, sympathetic, tense, wise

Dominant Traits

54% of people think that iDaDeE is cheerful

All Percentages

able (0%) accepting (9%) adaptable (18%) bold (0%) brave (0%) calm (0%) caring (27%) cheerful (54%) clever (0%) complex (9%) confident (9%) dependable (27%) dignified (9%) energetic (9%) extroverted (18%) friendly (45%) giving (0%) happy (27%) helpful (0%) idealistic (0%) independent (18%) ingenious (0%) intelligent (0%) introverted (0%) kind (9%) knowledgeable (9%) logical (9%) loving (9%) mature (9%) modest (9%) nervous (9%) observant (9%) organised (0%) patient (0%) powerful (0%) proud (0%) quiet (0%) reflective (0%) relaxed (0%) religious (0%) responsive (9%) searching (18%) self-assertive (0%) self-conscious (9%) sensible (9%) sentimental (45%) shy (0%) silly (27%) spontaneous (36%) sympathetic (0%) tense (0%) trustworthy (9%) warm (9%) wise (0%) witty (18%)

Created by the Interactive Johari Window on 16.4.2006, using data from 11 respondents.
You can make your own Johari Window, or view iDaDeE's full data.

yeap.. that's what my friends have got to say about me.. why don't you create one yourself & let friends tell you the personality traits that you never knew existed in you..? you can never know what they will come up with.. khehehe~

anyway, i've got a few books on pending that needs my attention.. been procrastinatin too much.. my attention has been diverted elsewhere i think.. khehe~ while friendships are being created & some, salvaged, the littlest details like the "abandoned" books were left untouched.. & so is my unruly hair & my overturned wadrobe & plans to clean out my drawers.. *SiGh* procrastination is not good..

the books
john grisham - the painted house
arthur golden - memoirs of a geisha
barbara vines - gallowglass
yann martell - life of pi [re-reading]
clayborne carson & kris shepard - a call to conscience
a. parody - a shite history of nearly everything

sympathy..?


i'm almost done with my write-up.. once done i'm going to let FiE read it 1st before "releasin" it..

anyway, i stumbled upon a friend's blog & i am very touched by what the person described me as.. for those who visited me, you probably noticed that i was in my cheerful mode right..? well, i didn't notice it actually.. i just realized that when i read that particular friend's blog.. in the 1st place, there nothin to be sad about.. it's not the end of the world & i'm not dyin or anythin.. to my friends who sympathize with me, thank you but i just want to say don't.. i don't need the sympathy because your thoughts & prayers will help me get better ok..? i'm sorry guys & i hope i didn't sound snobbish..

anyway, i got aDiBaH's b'day wrong... khehehe~ it's actually on the 14th.. silly me..! 12th was her mum's b'day.. oh well.. people make mistakes..

i've made plans for june/july.. i'm definitely lookin foward to my bintan trip, with or without company & i'm plannin to go tioman with FiE.. yes.. i heard it's cheap & maybe we shall go for a couple of days.. get away from the busy town life & chill out.. but i must remember not to get myself into this condition again or my plans will be ruined & postponed again.. hehehe~

countin down..


2 weeks & countin down.. the wait is such a torment.. ARGH..!! get this bloody cast off me..!! *SiGh* it gets lonely sometimes & it doesn't help that i feel secluded every single day.. like everyone's shunnin away from me or somethin.. hey.. i don't have a disease you know.. whatever.. what's the worse thing that can happen? oh right, i'm not celebrating my birthday.. jeez.. i forgot about that.. well, goodbye bintan.. i'll see you when i'm better i guess..

[me inside]: OH C'MON..! get a grip, girl..! it's just an additional year to your age..! it does not really matter..!

i guess it's right.. it's just another year.. no biggie.. hehehe~ i don't think anyone would actually remember it anyway.. *WiNkZ*

what's important now is that i have to get out of this freakin cast & back on my feet..! i know.. i know.. i've mentioned it a lot of times but it's just a reminder to myself that time waits for no one & i have a lot of things to accomplish & do.. it worries me a lot that i'm not startin school next term.. not to mention i have to go job huntin again once i'm able to walk.. oh & get rid of the HUGE MASS on my arms..! it's so big that my sleeves are tight & it's freakin uncomfortable..!

right now, i miss aZMaN so much.. missin him as a friend actually.. his presence always makes me smile & he knows how to make me forget about all the pain i'm in currently.. gosh.. i guess it's better this way.. for the both of us..

anyway, check out the quote link.. i change it everytime i add in a new entry.. enjoy people..

resurrect[ed]


so what do u think ey..? is the new blogskin nice..? took me 2 evenings to actually get everythin right.. PHEW..! personally, i love this skin out of all the ones that i've used before.. i don't know about you guys, but it kindda has a personal touch to it.. let me just break it down for you..

the picture:- it's my blog.. DUH..!
the song:- it's my favourite song & it's holds a special meanin in my life..
the vines:- the 'Chemical X' of the whole layout.. it gives a dark, sombre touch..
the marquee:- the only thing that moves around here..! reduces the static or stillness in the layout..

i love it..!

anyway, 18 more days to go before i go for my medical checkup.. hopefully the cast will be removed.. it really is a bothersome thing.. the swellin on both my feet's gradually goin down.. syukur alhamdullilah.. i don't think my hopes of walkin in a month's time is going to work out.. the ankles are still swelled up & they still hurt a lot.. oh well.. look on the brightside... at least i'm recoverin..

i'm dyin to get out into the sun..! i miss the beach.. i miss pushin through crowds & gettin pissed after.. i miss Cats In The Cradle.. i miss shop-hoppin for shoes.. *SiGh* i miss EVERYTHIN..!

mimpi..?


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