jealousy

*SiGh* my cousin's engaged & she's gettin married in jan '05... :( & she's only 20... damm jealous of her... since young i tot i'd b the one dat wud b married 1st instead of her but guess dis is wat we call fate... on the other hand, i'm really happy for her cuz she's really lyk a sister to me cuz she's the only child & we shared our childhood together juz lyk any other real sisters... made her promise dat i'll b her bridesmaid on her weddin... khehehe~ dat'll make up for my jealousy... :p at least i'd b able to b on the same bridal dias wit her on her big day...

got to noe abt the Singapore Idol applications & guess wat..? nah... no need for guesses... i'm gonna register for it... well, for the fun of it i guess... it'll b a so-called "test" for me to see how i actually fare & also a way to help me get over my stage-fright phobia... khehehe~