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230805

my BaBy.. the one i truly adore, whom i cherish wit all my heart & soul, the love of my life, decided to end a relationship dat i thought wud last.. i appreciate the tyms he's shared & i pray dat one day, things will be as how they were the last tym.. wateva dat happened in the past, i haf long forgiven him cuz i noe the kind of person he is & i noe dat it is impossible to actually change a person's character.. never once did i haf the intention of hurtin his feelins or cheat on him cuz i LOVE him so much..

i should haf understood his position.. shud not haf asked for the attention but instead shower him wit the attention.. i love him too much to actually accept the fact dat he's lettin me go & i will still hold on to wat i believe until i see it wit my very own eyes dat he doesn't love me animore.. until den, i will never see myself wit another person & will still love him as how i've always did..

020905

it cud haf been our 8th monthsary yesterday...

a very bad start to my week.. for the 1st tym in the past few mths, i hurt rOzi's feelins.. she totally is a changed person fr wat i observed.. no longer the sweet rOzi dat i knew.. she told me i've changed eversince dat terrible incident.. tryin my best here to be my old self but sumtyms i can't help but to think abt him.. feels lyk we're driftin apart.. she's not her usual self, keepin things fr me & we're spendin lesser tym wit each other.. hate dis tension btw us.. one by one things are turnin against me..

sumtyms i juz dun understand why do ppl lyk hurtin me dis way.. all the tym i try to accomodate to them but it seems dat my best was never enuf.. wat more do these guys wan fr me? tried controllin my temper wit dem, tried toleratin wit their lifestyles, apologised at every arguements we haf so wat more?? why can't i just haf a decent relationship lyk all other ppl?? i can neither be myself nor the person dat they wan me to be.. i really, really dun understand..

no more for me..! ain't no freakin' guy is gonna hurt me no more..!