Selamat Berpuasa to all my Muslim friends & friends who observe fastin.. a few more hours until break of fast.. alhamdulillah everythin went smoothly today.. well, considerin the fact that i don't lunch, fastin is quite easy..
i was glad that i saw u but i don't think it was such a good idea.. i've told myself that i should get away from you so that i won't hurt myself, as egoistic as it may sound.. i have to admit, i slowly developed feelings for you from the moment i knew you.. you have no idea how exhilarated i am everytime i see you, everytime i hear your voice, everytime i see your name.. i don't know.. as much as i want things to go my way, i have no such powers.. i know you can never reciprocate these feelings & that is the reason why i need to get away from you..
it was all good.. it was rough & tough in the beginnin but i was doin fine.. i stopped thinkin about you.. i stopped yearnin for you.. but it just had to happen, didn't it..? when we met, i totally forgot that you are not to exist in my life.. i was so surprised that all rules & restrictions i had put up just lost their importance.. i won't say i regretted but more of a disappointment.. now that i've seen you, i will have to go through the whole process of avoidance.. you don't know what it's like for me especially now that things are different.. i have to draw a thin line between me & the other person because of you.. i hate hurtin people, therefore the line has to be there..
if only i could say all these out loud.. if only you knew..
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