justification..?

justification..?

sometimes it's hard to please everyone especially when EVERYONE is under pressure & they expect SOMETHIN from you all at the same time..

as much as i don't want to appear ungrateful, i might already have.. not that i want to but as i have mentioned above, it's so hard to please everyone.. i don't even know if i have made the right decisions so far.. knowin myself, i'm bound to regret a lot of things..

i don't know how to apologise to a very good friend who, i know, i've hurt so much..
i don't know if i've met the right person or the path that i choose is the one that i REALLY want to follow..
i don't know what's goin on actually..

1st issue - maybe i just didn't like the fact that everybody was assumin that we are a couple but that was like ages ago.. maybe i'm just haunted by it.. up till now, i can't stand it when anyone makes a joke out of this matter.. it just makes me so mad..! somehow, i'm so scarred by it but i don't understand why.. he's helped me so much, he was always there during the FALL period & he hasn't done anythin wrong but i JUST DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY I CAN'T LET THINGS BE AS THEY WERE..?

2nd issue - i'm gettin the cold feet suddenly.. i have no doubts about him because i know what he is really into & it's definitely not GIRLS.. just that sometimes i feel pressurized with the current situation to the extent that i can't even think.. i just wish that he can really, really understand..

gimme a break..