el sentimiento miserable

tot april wud b a glorious mth for me... i'd b turnin 21 soon, tot of splurging my pay [i'm talkin abt REAL SPENDIN here!] on myself for my birthday but things juz had to turn nasty... everyday, wakin up is a torture... havin to let the reality sink in abt being jobless really hurts... there goes my hope to study...

money's runnin out fast... i've been in depression-mode all week long eversince i stepped-out of the fuckin shop down at robinson rd... i'm really sorry to all those hu were unfortunate to have crossed my unglamourous temper especially to my SunShine hu goes thru it everyday... but thanx for being there for me... really appreciate the tot... thank God ur still here or i myt be tearin my hair out ryt at dis moment...

got to go... haf somemore depression stuffs to tink abt... pray hard i won't b bald the next tym any of u c me... adios guys...