exam.. [deja vu]


sittin for my last paper later at 2pm.. head's spinnin, stomach's achin, eye's stoned.. wat cud be worst..? headphones on, hoobastank's playin.. *SiGh* tryin to adapt to exams once again.. i noe it's too late cuz it's the last paper but i've gotta get used to it cuz i've got another 3 more terms to go thru..

last saturday's meetin wuz a breather for me.. i mean after the rough rides, i wuz really lukin foward to the meetin.. well more lyk meetin familiar faces dat i've not meet before & not met for a long tym.. hhmmm... wuz assigned as an editor together wit TiaRa.. gonna be fun..! my BaBy gerL & me..

things lukin fine here at home & i'm beginnin to luv it.. no matter wat, FAMILY COMES FIRST..

lemme juz gif a recap of the event dat started my misery till now..

230805 wuz the date dat he broke off the relationship.. i dunno y but i wuz SO INTO HIM.. mayb bcuz of the things dat we've been thru together dat made the relationship very, very special & meaningful to me.. i wuz SO ready to settle down wit him cuz i've almost totally changed myself for the better for my family, for him & myself.. i changed my job for stability reasons, i stopped my bad habits & picked up gd ones for the relationship but in the end it didnt werk out..

bcuz i wuz so into the relationship
- my job got affected & i left..
- my BEST FREN OF 5 YRS gave up on me..
- i almost wrecked my family ties..
- i made frens worried..
- i went into isolation, kept late nyts sumtyms not slpin for 2 days straight, comin hm late almost everyday, cried my eyes out to slp..

in short i wuz damagin my health.. now i only haf my family, close frens & my skul.. do you think i can keep it together?