i'm just confused..


just digressin from all topics of discussion.. i think my floatin bubble is about to burst pretty soon & i can feel my feet almost touchin home base.. guess i'm gettin a reality check here..

i just wish that there was someone like you here but unfortunately, it doesn't work that way.. you see, we can't always get what we want.. today seemed very distant & for some reason i sensed that you were distracted with somethin.. the abrupt good night & good bye.. & i forgot to let you know that i have missed you over the weekend..

you really touched me when you actually took the time to read the silly journal entry that no one has even bothered to look at due to its lengthy content.. you could understand it & even explained to me what was written & i haven't even asked for your thoughts on it.. you even remembered & asked how my grandma was.. how can i not like you?

sometimes it gets confusin.. my dear, i am not in love with you if that is what you want to know.. i like you & maybe you like me so let's just leave it as that.. i can't be in love with you!! maybe not for now.. it's the bloody freakin distance that is makin it less possible.. i jolly well know [& have learnt from mistakes] that when dealin with matters of the heart, we have to be realistic about everythin be it time, distance or even career..

sometimes i wish everythin was easy but i guess it's tough luck for me.. 11 months & countin..