to LOVE or to be IN LOVE?


currently listenin to: Eve - No, No, No

did i mention i despise most of the guys in the whole wide world? let me make it clear now.. I HATE YOU IDIOTIC CREATURES..! i hope you all will die an insufferable death, may your carcass rot beyond recognition & hopefully nobody gives a damn about your demise..!

i received a phone call from aLeXiS who told me she saw aZMaN with another girl.. i don't know.. a part of me says 'That's great..' yet another part of me fell into a despair shock.. 1st he disappeared & next thing i hear he's with another girl.. *in a mockin tone* haha.. whatever.. at least i'm content to know he's still alive..

to be in love & to love are 2 different things.. guess i was just lovin him & not in love with him.. well, i love practically everyone i know be it family or friends.. thinkin back, i've made mistakes by claimin that i was in love with someone when in true reality i just love that person like how my true lovin self always does.. when was i ever in love? i don't know.. maybe i don't deserve to be in love..

i rest my case..

3 more days to check up..