lady rain..


it has been a wet, wet week.. very sad..

i realised i've gained 6 kilos [NO...!!!] & now i'm fat & ugly.. not forgettin jobless & helpless [make dat HOPEless..] i already put myself on a strict 'no-chocolate' diet & i'm tryin not to eat too much..

it's really tough lukin for a job everywhr.. luck is really not on my side.. stupid of me.. really.. badly in nid of a job ryt now.. can't stand askin BaBa for money everytym i nid it.. it pisses him off & i noe it.. anyone can help me..? please..?

in confusion now actually.. i dunno wat i'm supposed to do wit all these guys in my lyf.. i wanna live w/o them.. can i..? mayb i shud haf a heart to heart talk wit FiE.. settle things once & for all.. i noe MY BABY GERL wud lyk dat.. khehehe..

oh.. & btw, juz to make things clear, I AIN'T NOBODY'S SCANDAL AITE.. get dis clear in dat small brain of urs.. u shud noe hu u r..

exam.. [deja vu]


sittin for my last paper later at 2pm.. head's spinnin, stomach's achin, eye's stoned.. wat cud be worst..? headphones on, hoobastank's playin.. *SiGh* tryin to adapt to exams once again.. i noe it's too late cuz it's the last paper but i've gotta get used to it cuz i've got another 3 more terms to go thru..

last saturday's meetin wuz a breather for me.. i mean after the rough rides, i wuz really lukin foward to the meetin.. well more lyk meetin familiar faces dat i've not meet before & not met for a long tym.. hhmmm... wuz assigned as an editor together wit TiaRa.. gonna be fun..! my BaBy gerL & me..

things lukin fine here at home & i'm beginnin to luv it.. no matter wat, FAMILY COMES FIRST..

lemme juz gif a recap of the event dat started my misery till now..

230805 wuz the date dat he broke off the relationship.. i dunno y but i wuz SO INTO HIM.. mayb bcuz of the things dat we've been thru together dat made the relationship very, very special & meaningful to me.. i wuz SO ready to settle down wit him cuz i've almost totally changed myself for the better for my family, for him & myself.. i changed my job for stability reasons, i stopped my bad habits & picked up gd ones for the relationship but in the end it didnt werk out..

bcuz i wuz so into the relationship
- my job got affected & i left..
- my BEST FREN OF 5 YRS gave up on me..
- i almost wrecked my family ties..
- i made frens worried..
- i went into isolation, kept late nyts sumtyms not slpin for 2 days straight, comin hm late almost everyday, cried my eyes out to slp..

in short i wuz damagin my health.. now i only haf my family, close frens & my skul.. do you think i can keep it together?

Happy 2006 Everyone..


juz wanna wish everyone a very happy 2006.. may the new yr bring happier moments & events to everyone..

things r not ridin dat well for me.. i wanna go back but my stubborness is juz being itself.. i miss MuM but i miss aYuL the most.. damm it..

i'm havin my 1st paper at 2pm later.. i'm supposed to be slpin but here i am updatin my blog.. i wanna continue but i tink i'll do dat in the later part of the day.. my brain suddenly froze on me.. nid to hang out my laundry aniwae.. so many things yet so little tym & so little brain activity.. update again soon..

LETTER FOR A SISTER..


SO U SAY U GUYS CARE? R U SURE? HAVE U GUYS EVER GIF A TOT ABT HOW I WOULD FEEL OR TINK..? HAF U GUYS EVER REALISED DAT I AM FAMILY..? U GUYS TINK I DO WATEVER I DID WITOUT TINKIN RYT..?I BET U DO.. WELL I DUN.. I HAF MY REASONS Y I DUN FOLLOW THE RULES AT HM..

SO U SAY DAT HE CARES & LUVS ME MORE DEN ANY OF U GUYS? R U SURE? HU IS THE ONE DAT HE DOTES UPON ALL THE TYM? HU IS THE ONE HU DOESNT GET SCOLDIN FOR SCORIN BADLY IN THE EXAMS? WUZ DAT ALL ME..? I DUN TINK SO.. COUNT URSELVES LUCKY DAT BOTH UR CHILDHOODS WUZ MORE COLOURFUL DEN MYN.. COUNT URSELVES LUCKY DAT U DIDNT HAF TO FACE THE CANE EVERY SINGLE DAY OF UR CHILDHOOD.. SKUL FEES..? HE TOLD ME HE'S NO LONGER PAYIN FOR MY SKUL FEES.. THANX A LOT.. I WILL TRY TO FIND MY MEANS, I'LL TINK OF SUMTHIN.. U WANT ME TO PONDER ABT Y I BLAME HIM WEN I MADE A MISTAKE..? HU'S THE ONE HU MADE THE MISTAKE IN THE 1ST PLC..? SO HE TINKS DAT I DIDN'T LUK FOR A JOB..? TINK AGAIN.. U TINK I LYK ASKIN HIM FOR MONEY..? ALL THROUGHOUT MY ENTIRE SKUL LIFE UP TILL O'BRIENS, HAF I EVER TROUBLED HIM FINANCIALLY..? EVEN WEN HE BORROWED FR ME, HAF I EVER ASKED FOR IT BACK..? PLEASE PONDER & TELL ME.. I'M JUZ CURIOUS.. Y DOES HE LYK TO PICK ON ME..? I MEAN, WAT IS PAST HAS PASSED.. I'M NO LONGER THE PERSON I WUZ BEFORE SO Y IS HE STILL PICKIN ON ME..? SO MANY TYMS I'VE CHANGED JUZ SO WE WON'T FIGHT BUT THERE IS ALWAYS SUMTHIN ABT ME DAT BOTHERS HIM SO MUCH DAT HE HAS TO QUARREL WIT ME..

I LUV HER A LOT.. EVEN IF SHE DOESN'T TREAT ME AS WELL AS SHE TREATS U, I STIL LUV HER.. EVEN WEN SHE DOESN'T WANNA TALK TO ME LYK HOW SHE TALKS TO U, I STIL LUV HER.. EVEN WEN SHE DOESN'T COME TO MY DEFENSE WEN HE BEATS ME UP LYK CRAP, I STIL LUV HER.. EVEN WEN SHE ALMOST MADE ME A CRIPPLE & BROKE MY BACK, I STIL LUV HER.. IT'S NOT THE PRESENTS DAT I WAN ON MY B'DAY, I JUZ WANNA BE TREATED JUZ AS EQUAL..

I TRIED TO BOND WIT HIM CUZ HE'S MY BROTHER.. I LUV HIM CUZ HE'S THE ONLY BROTHER I HAF.. I HAF NVR TREAT HIM BAD.. I DUN TINK I EVER DID.. I KIP MY DISTANCE AT TYMS BCUZ I DIDN'T WAN TO INFLUENCE HIM IN ANY BAD WAY.. HE'S THE ONE HU DOESN'T WANNA TALK TO ME.. HE'S THE ONE HU DOESN'T WANNA OPEN UP.. I WATCHED BOTH OF U GROW UP & IT DOESN'T BOTHER ME DAT U GUYS R CLOSE CUZ DATS HOW U GUYS HAF BEEN SINCE SMALL.. IT MAKES ME VERY HAPPY JUZ TO C THE BOTH OF U CLOSE.. I DUN ASK FOR MUCH..

I SWEAR I LUV U THE MOST OF ALL THE MEMBERS IN THE HSE.. U NOE I DO.. EVEN WEN U DUN COME TO MY RESCUE WEN I NEEDED U, I STIL LUV U.. I HAF NVR DISCRIMINATED U & I'M FLATTERED TO HEAR DAT U LUK UP TO ME ALTHO I NOE I'M JUZ A PIECE OF USELESS CRAP HU GETS ON EVERYONE'S NERVES & MAKE THEIR BLOOD BOIL.. TINK OF ALL THE TYMS I'VE COVERED UR ASS WEN U GOT INTO TROUBLE.. U NOE I WON'T LET ANYONE LAY A FINGER ON U.. NOT EVEN DAD.. WAT'S THE USE OF HAVIN THE BRAINS BUT NOBODY CARES..? I DUN CARE HOW OR WAT U R, U R STIL MY SISTER HU I LUV VERY MUCH & NO ONE CAN CHANGE DAT FACT.. WAT MAKES U TINK I BAD-MOUTHED U TO MY FRENS..? SUMTYMS I DO SAY NASTY THINGS BUT U NOE I DUN MEAN DEM & I SAY DEM SUMTYMS SO DAT U REALISE DAT U SHUD STOP LIVIN IN MY SHADOWS & B URSELF.. I CANNOT BE THERE FOR U ALL THE TYM & BACK U UP.. IT'S NOT DAT I DUN WANNA SHARE SECRETS WIT U BUT LUK AT URSELF IN THE MIRROR & TINK.. EVERYTYM I SHARE SUMTHIN WIT U, U ALWAYS SAY ALL THE NEGATIVE THINGS & U ALWAYS PUT ME DOWN.. HOW DO U TINK I FEEL..?

U GUYS ALWAYS BLAME ME FOR EVERTHIN DAT HAPPENS IN THE HSE.. HAF U ALSO STOPPED TO TINK WAT U GUYS HAF DONE..? OR SHUD I SAY HAF NOT DONE..? I'M THE BAD APPLE IN THE HSE.. I'M THE ONE HU 'BROKE-UP' THE FAMILY.. I'M THE ONE HU'S CAUSIN THE TROUBLE.. HAF U GUYS TOT ABT Y I BECAME LYK DAT..? IT'S SO EZ FOR U TO POINT UR FINGERS AT ME BUT HAF U ALSO SEEN WAT I HAF DONE FOR THE FAMILY..?

PLEASE.. I WANNA GO HOME.. I WAN EVERYTHIN TO BE NORMAL.. IS IT SO HARD..?

Merry Christmas..!


yeah.. i dun celebrate x'mas but Merry X'mas aniwae.. haf been takin dis tym to slack.. i mean rest at hm.. khehehe~

aniwae, before i forget, i better jot down my resolutions sumwhr.. well here goes, in the order of importance..

1 - get myself a job
2 - pay off my bills
3 - get my drivin license
4 - complete my Diploma course
5 - FINALLY find a REAL guy to settle down wit..

speakin of settle down, it's Karima's weddin tdy.. congratulations.. *WiNkZ*

dis is gonna be one memorable new year.. exactly a yr back, east coast, sittin by the beach, countin down till new year's day, HE proposed.. *SiGh* gotta do sumthin on new year's eve.. kip myself distracted fr those tots.. well, i'll be back later.. gonna watch sum tv..

my 'WAN'derful Grandma..


171205
0700hrs - Headed out. only had 2 person in mind at dat moment of tym n strangely, one of dem was NeLL.. geez.. why? I dunno.. juz kindda miss him after the msn conversations we xchanged of late.. crappy, nonsensical buddy of myn.. hehe..

1000hrs - Met my Uncle Man & headed straight to Auntie Yam's [aka aYuL's MuM] plc.. found out they were building new semi-ds ard her area & my parents r now in discussion to buy a hse there.. geez [again].. slacked till late & BaBa says we're goin to Auntie Sham's plc in Malacca next..

2230hrs - Reached Auntie Sham's plc.. slpy.. *YaWn* hhmmpphh.. no comments.. slpy.. really..

181205
1102 - Juz woke up.. reached Grandma's at 0130 dis morning.. everyone tried wakin me up but I juz pretended dat I didn't hear dem.. hehe.. I'm achin all over.. oh well..

1612 - All set now.. we're headin to Ulu Bentong, a 15 mins drive fr Grandma's.. I dunno how to describe the plc but u'll c it in the pics later..

1900 - Back.. Very tired but had a great tym.. ;) hehehe~ the water wuz darn cold..! almost froze wen my feet touched the water..

191205
1000 - Hmm.. an hr earlier den ystrday.. we're goin visitin tdy.. heard there's a possibility we're goin hm tdy.. hhmmm...

1645 - We're at Grandma's 2nd sister's hse, 1/2 an hr ride fr her plc.. been here since 1400.. myt not be goin hm tdy.. sadness..

201205
0750 - Awake.. WoW..! hehehe~ & no one woke me up.. ;) guess the excitement is too overwhelmin.. can't wait to be back..

1140 - Got back fr class.. [i went straight to class the moment we reached mind u..] saw my frens online.. I MISH U GUYS..!

40.0 degrees..


YEAH..! assignments all done & submitted..! FINALLY..

found out dat now many ppl has dis perception dat i'm datin RuSHy.. oh dear.. RuSHy.. RuSHy.. he makes it so real dat i dunno how i'm gonna get out of dis one.. hmmm...

i did sumthin silly last saturday.. wuz so pissed wit HIM at hm dat i took off & went drinkin.. bodoh kan? a drink too many & there i wuz, flyin witout wings... hehehehe~ BUT i did not trouble anyone.. thank goodness.. sober up in the afternoon at abt 3pm & felt zombie-ish.. broke one of my pacts.. sheesh.. things lukin rough for me.. no HP, no internet [sumtyms, at hm..] & no one at hm [but my sis] is talkin to me for some reason.. *SiGh*

haf been eatin a lot lately.. hung out wit sTeve, GreG & aLeXis a lot toO.. speakin of which, GreG leaves on the 20th.. funny fella.. hehehe~ gonna miss him wen he's gone.. felt feverish last wednesday & yesterday was a high of 40.0 degrees.. felt better tdy & temp is currently at 37.2 as i type dis.. aniwae, leavin for grandma's at 10 later.. will b back on the 20th, hopefully in tym for SBS class..

aite gonna leave u guys wit pics of MORE food..!

assignments.. tsk..




yeap.. dats my shoe's heel.. it came off even before i went for the hari raya outin wit aYuL, her guy & his frens... hehehe~

aniwae, met up wit sTevie & DaVe yesterday for dinner.. well, DaVe got sort-of promoted so i asked him for a treat.. hehe~ thick-skinned me.. thank u guy for dinner.. njoyed myself very much & thank u sTevie for the indepth tots on SPGs..

my assignments ARE NOT COMPLETED YET..!!! AARRRGGGHHH..!! stressed out wit no job, no luv, no life.. aniwae, i shall leave u peeps wit the food we had yesterday..

Beef Rendang


BBq Stingray


Chap Chye


[The Not-So-Tasty] Soon Hock with Soya & Garlic Sauce

fill 'em up


so many things, so little lines.. bear wit me guys..

the suckiest Raya so far.. pictures up so help urself to the sad little pictures.. it wuz so sucky dat i went out wit aYuL's frens [erm.. actually aYuL's guy's skulmates..] who we dun noe.. but thanx aniwae SiS for being so thoughtful.. luv u lots.. to all frens: next yr aite..? disappointment.. aniwae, attended dJ RuSHy's open hse on the 26th last mth.. thanx RuSH..

MuM's buggin me abt marriage.. no Ma, u betta stop it.. i'm not gettin married [yet..] cuz i'm not ready.. damm.. she's scarin me wit the 'M' word.. she kips tinkin dat HeLMy [my SBS classmate] is my guy wen he actually is not.. Ma, reali, stop it.. i mean it..! speakin of which, classes r almost comin to the end.. Human & Mass Communication [HMC] class will end on the 12th & Social Behavioural Studies [SBS] class will end on the 23rd.. i haf a very long way to get my diploma & after which i'm tinkin of continuin wit the advanced diploma.. *SiGh*

found a part-tym job juz for this december.. helpin out at a gift/flower shop as an admin asst.. betta den nuthin ryt..? i finally handed over my SingPost werk pass & collected the remains of my stuff back at the office.. suddenly, i miss the plc, my pals at werk & especially my best fren, iDaDi..

went to watch Chicken Little [he's kindda cute..] wit HeLMy juz now & after which we went to esplanade to catch Lovehunters' performance.. damm..! the vocalist [yaZiD] literally took my breath away..! swept me off my feet..! *DrooLs..* hehehe~ he wuz gd, well the trio wuz gd.. WoW..! wud luv to c him perform again.. met up wit aYuL & NaD & headed hm after..

suddenly most of my ex-es r in contact wit me.. hhmmm..

- FiE
- FaiZaL [mD]
- aZHaR
- NaS [well i wudn't consider him but can also lah..]

but becoz..?


i must b borin u guys wit details dat may seem irrelevant to ur daily lives.. i cant help it.. not dat i dun wanna talk to any of u, juz dat i cant say it.. my RESURRECTION is the only plc i can let out everythin.. *SiGh*

my sis got herself a Nokia 3230 recently.. gd for u SiS.. u've been wantin a new phone ryt? stil in search of a new job.. applied to all sorta companies & yet to receive news.. im bored to death ryt now, here at hm.. waitin for the tym to reach 6pm.. mittin one of my pals, wanna go chill at east coast..

quittin smokin is givin me migrane..! will not give up.. already quit clubbin [erm.. i think..] & drinkin.. one of those resolutions before the New Year shits.. i noticed i'm shrinkin.. must be agein really fast here.. losin my appetite, losin my temper, losin my mood.. losin everythin..

gd luck to FaiZaL on ur new luv life.. glad to hear ur movin on..

i'm njoyin myself deejayin almost every nyt.. be it by myself or wit dJ RuSHy, everytym i go onair, i feel lyk i'm in another plc.. whr ppl listen to me & not me listenin to dem.. a change for once..

i've updated my POETRY PAGE so do check it out.. i shall leave u guys now wit my pic fr JB..


my QuRaiSyaH..


aYuL & her 'MuM'


mE & MuM


aYuL & MuM


uS @ one of the kampung..


mE & aYuL..

he wasn't man enuf for me


gone.. he's gone.. hehe~ told u peepz.. these kindda guys r lyk everywhr nowadays.. no regrets, no tears, no turnin back for me.. it's so ez.. u lie, u get out of my life.. dat's it, short & simple.. thank goodness i wuzn't serious wit him or else i'll only end up wit another chipped-off heart.. hehehe~

it's lyk dis.. i'm not tryin to say dat i wuz playin ard wit his feelins.. juz dat i told him i wuzn't ready for a relationship & he didn't seem lyk the type you can get serious wit [pls read my blog entry dated november 11] but he said dat 'he luvs me' & all those mushy stuffs.. wateva..! so, ok fine.. i let him haf a taste of wat it's lyk wen u lie to DeE in a relationship.. he lied A LOT & dat wuz enuf for me to show him the door..

- bike? i didn't c ur licence.
- ex-gf died 2 yrs ago? u broke up 4 mths back.
- bike accident? more lyk 'i fell off my bed'.
- parents divorcin? already divorced.
- dad in Bali? mayb dad in Batam.
- credit cards? get urself an ATM card first.

wat do u guys get wen u do dis?

i dun..


i'm not werkin animore but im wuz thinkin of lukin for a job dat's relevant to my course.. i'm reali not a theory person.. hehe~ tot it wud b better if i found a job dat's in the same capacity as my course so at least i've got the experience..

found sumone hu is 'in luv' wit me.. wateva.. dun reali trust those words until proven.. dunno if he's serious or juz being a playa [if u noe wat i mean..] some call him DaNieL or alternatively NaSiR, 27, stubborn old jackass, mummy's 'boy', a lady's man & kips tellin people 'nie bini aku..' [dis is my wife..] havent got a picture of him to show but will try to get it soon.. he doesnt reali lyk takin pictures of himself.. damm him.. well, i juz take wateva dat comes.. if he's not up to it also den i'm sori baby, out the door u go.. the feelin of lykin a guy is slowly wearin off me.. haha..!

i'm disappointed wit tmr's plan.. RaJa said we're not goin out tmr & FiE hasnt called or reply me back.. found out the TK guys r plannin on jalan raya next saturday but i've yet to call anione of dem.. MuM's not goin to Uncle Rosli's open hse tmr so i guess it's 'Stay Home Saturday' for me unless ZiE has plans.. hhmmm...

gotta clarify sumthin.. people myt tink dat i'm reali a Black Widow but i'm not.. happens dat i've got loads of guy frens.. dat's all.. it's been dat way eversince i wuz a kid so dun get the wrong idea aite..? ryt.. leavin now, talk later..

cheats, lies & deceits...


actually i already typed out my previous entries but sumhow, blogger wuz under maintainence, didn't save my entries & all wuz lost.. damm it..

had my hair cut tink abt 1 or 2 wks back.. dyed it red [dun ask..!] & i luk lyk a freakin witch.. talk abt halloween..!

aniwae, met FaiZaL & LukMaN last friday.. he came to take his baju kurung fr me.. we slacked & chatted a while at my void deck & after wat seemed lyk 15 minutes, they left.. no comments..

hey, i've already added the september babies photo & the 'legendary' cursed 3-2-3.. hehehe~ the neverendin haunt..

i've yet to jalan raya & not sure wen we [the whole family] r goin to do so.. it's a really freakin different Raya for me.. *SiGh*

aniwae, wats wit my blog topic u say..? well wat else..? they cheat, they lie & they r full of deceit..
- FiE >> tot u wanted the green baju kurung? i painstakingly kept it for u.. u didnt reply my msgs, didnt return my calls & ended up i gave it to FaiZaL.
- aNDiE >> disappeared. period.
- DaNNy >> disappeared [wit my 50 geez]. damm it..

hhmm... juz found out sumthin.. my lyf is revolvin ard too many ppl by the name of FaiZaL.. gotta STAY [very far, far] AWAY fr dem.. i can go on but i betta not.. peace out..

Selamat Hari Raya


Selamat Hari Raya to y'all...

Thorough sadness fills my heart, as the takbir is chanted in the air..
Different is today, now my MuM is far, far away..
As families walk thru the streets visitin their loved ones, here i am longin for MuM..
missin HIM too, the one i adore..
Strong as i am, i cannot lie..
SEPASANG KURUNG HIJAU..
BERAKHIRNYA CINTA INI..

'da BLACK WIDOW..


seems lyk my Singles_Out haf done it so i tink it's my turn.. here goes..

7 things dat [will] scare me:
- my MuM not comin home for RaYa
- losin my family
- losin my frens
- growin old
- not gettin married
- guys being afraid of me.. hehehehe!~
- not able to find DAT SUMONE to fill the empty space in my heart.. *SiGh*

7 things dat i lyk most:
- Singles_Out
- iDaDi
- mY BeLoveD aBg FiQue.. hhmmm...
- internet
- SiNgiN'.. lalalaala...
- takin pictures.. hehehe~ an understatement..!
- tall guys.. [pls refer to point no. 3] *WiNkZ..!*

7 most important things in my room:
- my [SiSter's] laptop
- my Winnie the Pooh
- my comforter
- my mirror
- my air-conditioner
- my Starbucks mug
- my SiSter

7 random facts abt me:
- i get paranoid wen sumone calls me by my full name
- wen i scream at my SiSter, it means i luv her..
- i cry wen i dun get to surf the net.. even for a while..
- i haf manic depression [at certain tyms dat is..]
- i [am beginnin to] haf insomnia
- i'm a DEVOTED GURLFREN damm it..! i really am, ouhkie..?
- i become sumone else wen i'm wit DAT SUMONE dat i adore..

7 things i plan to do before i die:
- tell DAT SUMONE dat i adore him
- get married
- get married & honeymoon in SpaIn
- stop screamin at my SiSter
- start communicatin wit my BroTher
- quit smokin
- make BaBa quit smokin also.. hehehe~

7 things dat i CAN do:
- fall in luv
- flare my temper at the wierdest moments
- show guys who i'm not interested in DA HAND w/o feelin guilty
- stayin up for a max of 48 hrs
- be on tym for appointments.. hehehe~
- cook
- sing.. [wuz forced to admit it..]

7 things dat i CANT do:
- dJ & type at the same tym
- sing & dance at the same tym
- sing alone in front of an audience
- resist the temptation of spendin my last few dollars
- tell DAT SUMONE dat i adore him
- quit smokin
- change myself to suit another person's criteria

7 words i say a lot:
- Thank you for callin SingPost, this is Ida. How can I help you?
- 'kau dah kenaper??!'
- 'tak dapat..!'
- damm u..!
- 'tengok ah camaner..'
- 'kalau kau fikir..'
- 'mati ah..!'

7 celeb crushes:
- aBg FiQue
- Taufik
- Taufik Batisah
- Da Singapore Idol
- mY fav cuzzin
- Sulaiman Hamzah
- Christiano Ronaldo

7 peeps i would luv to see doin dis:
- my SiSter
- my SiSter's frens
- ?
- ?
- ?
- ?
- ?

ouhkie.. my SiSter's waitin for me now.. gtg change.. gonna go haf a haircut later..

oh happy days..!


hahahahaha..!~

my [3/4] Singles_Out gerls nvr fail to put a smile on my face.. thank u gerls..! thank u also to Singles_Out's best fren(s) for takin tym off to join us in one of our outings [iDaDi, aDek & a'Ne's frens.. hehe..].. so sori to my 2 darlins for the hiccup at the beginnin of the outin.. lyk s|z mentioned, i've given up on eBoO.. cant be bothered to ask her for the next gatherin.. well, i njoyed myself VERY, VERY much yesterday & i apologize 1 more tym for disappearin halfway thru the outin..

pictures [compliments fr s|z & my other reliable resources..] will be up.. soon.. promise..

juz realized dat i havent been updatin my poetry page.. hhmmm... soon also..

ryt.. got to go dj now... catch up wit y'all later..

[new] Singles_Out


s|z & her gerlfren


a'Ne & her gerlfrens


DeE & her gerlfren

there she goes..


they left on thursday afternoon at abt 4.30pm.. said gdbye to MuM teary-eyed.. i'm missin her already & i miss MaMa & Mak Nor.. damm.. juz wished they cud come home soOn..

cant wait to go break fast wit my Singles_Out SISTERS.. it's gonna be a 'Girlfriends' nyt out again.. YiPPiE..!

skul wuz fun.. a totally different experience fr NYP.. both my lecturers r fun & understandin.. [too bad one's old & the other's not my type.. hhmmm...] wanna thank my superiors @ SingPost for their kind understandin & givin me the flexible werkin hrs to accommodate to my classes.. *WiNkZ!*

to all the guys out there hu stil tinks dat im available.. let me make dis clear.. I AM NOT.. well, i m but im not interested.. hehehe~ i did try but it didnt werk out.. *SiGh*

busy, busy, BUSY..!


i'm startin skul dis monday.. my classes will be ongoing on every mondays & tuesdays @ MDIS campus, stirling road... dat's pretty far.. WoW..! i'm goin back to skul..! *sMiLeZ*

went to geylang today wit RaJa, ZaLi & DaniEL.. my 'SiSteRs' dat i've not met for quite sum tym... missed dem..! hehehehe~ ppl tot dat DaniEL wuz my guy cuz he's the only one hu luks 'straight' but nOpe, he's nOt..! hahahaha~ met a few ppl there namely, nOra [my cuzzin], KaK OyaH [my oTheR cuzzin], aPai [my fren], sHeDah [my BaBy..!] & BB [O'Briens ex colleague]..

before dat, after werk, went out wit iDaDi.. she accompanied me to pay my skul fees & after which we walked to Paradiz Centre & den to Plaza Singapura... must haf lost a couple of grams.. hehehe~ [wont say kilo..]

contradictin...
now im kippin in touch wit FaiZaL.. why?? i dunno.. mayb cuz of his baju kurung? i dun care.. he's juz a fren to me now.. wateva happens, happens..

now.. concentrate...


had a kenduri @ MaMa's hse tdy.. it's for the Umrah thingy.. *SiGh* dis yr's the saddest Hari Raya for me..
1> MuM's not in S'pore on the 1st day
2> BaBa's werkin on the 1st day
3> my 1st tym celebratin w/o my 'Other Half'
4> spendin a lot [for the 1st tym] for Hari Raya (ok so dat's not so sad... it's a responsibility..)

i dun wan a committment ryt now.. i've got responsibilities for the tym bein.. shoo guys..!

aniwae, i myt be startin skul @ MDIS if not soon den it'll be in January.. thanx BaBa..

**Singles_Out --> if u gerls wanna break fast on the weekend, how abt 22nd/23rd?

& suddenly it came back..


mistake..
mistake..
mistake..

met LukMaN yesterday & it wuz a mistake.. the main reason y i met up wit him wuz dat i wanted my MiNi ViSa back.. FaiZaL passed it to LukMaN & told him to return it to me.. shared the whole experienced wit LukMaN over dinner & i dunno.. *SiGh* FiE told me dat it cud juz all be a setup meanin dat LukMaN wuz juz bein an informer to FaiZaL.. an ego-booster for him if true enuf LukMaN wuz to pass on wateva i told him last nyt.. i dun care actually if he really does tell FaiZaL wat i told him.. to me everythin is over, it's all in the past..

huh! wuz told dat he became depressed, started drinkin till he knocked himself out.. wOw.. wuz dat supposed to make me feel sori for him..? did he feel sori for me..?

mistake..

hey..! brOtha FiE's comin home..! told me he'll be back by 2000hrs.. cOoL.. my best buDDy's back..