what happened?


sorry been away... partly because was grounded by my BaBa.. khehehe~ as promised, i will try to give as much details as possible..

aZMaN's a very, very good friend of mine & we got to know each other a couple of years back.. if i'm not mistaken somewhere in 2001 or 2002.. he was always there to lend a listenin ear & a shoulder to cry on.. at one point, we were both attached & our companions were sceptical about our friendship so we drifted & disappeared.. 2 years later, we bumped into each other [& that was somewhere nearin the end on Jan] & took us 2 weeks to finally meet up to catch up on times.. that was the beginnin of a crazy, crazy week.. in fact, it is still crazy up till now..

we met, had dinner @ Cafe Iguana, couple of margaritas & he got me up the G-Max..! ahahaha..! the view was breathtakin from up there, suspended in that thing.. could see the S'pore River & some parts of Clake Quay.. wow..! you guys should try.. had coffee & witness a firework display.. we met up subsequently the next day for b'fast & he surprised me with 'Memoirs of a Geisha' [though i've already watched it..] the next few days, we met up for dinner & stuffs like that & we enjoy each & every moment of it..

i'm not a Valentine's Day person & never had celebrated Valentine's Day but 3 days ago, i discovered that aZMaN shares the same passion for poetry & arts like i do & we made plans to so-called celebrate the V-day via the unconventional way.. we went to the Singapore Philatelic Museum [FYI: it's a stamp museum] & then to The Substation for the 3rd SSFF [it's a short film thingy..]

why i say it still is crazy? well, eventhough we still hold the friendship that we had a couple of years ago, we kind of brought that to another level.. a higher level, that is.. we discovered each other's feelings ONLY of late.. but the thing is, we've being keepin it from each other for the past 2 years, fearin that it will ruin the friendship..

maybe it is worth going through all those crappy times.. havin him now in my life is like an answered prayer..

WooHoo..!


i had a crazy fun time yesterday.. i went for an interview at The Coffee Club & after the interview, i got the job.. details later.. i'm rushin for time.. went to O'Brien's to meet my friends & the kindda got me my old job back.. yes ar..!

the crazy fun time was with aZMaN.. like i said i'll detail later.. i just had to put it in my blog now before i forget.. later guys.. i'm off to school.. shit i'm late..!

menulis dalam bahasa ku..


jangan di tanya.. tiba-tiba jer terasa macam nak kena tulis dalam bahasa melayu.. mungkin berpunca [cey.. berpunca sey..!] dari blog teman-teman tertentu yang suka tulis blog mereka macam gini.. ini yang dikatakan pengaruh..

aku terharu sekali bila aku terbaca satu blog ni.. terpampang wajah aku yang "jelita" ni di muka depan blog tersebut.. terperanjat sekejap aku dibuatnya.. dah tu pulak ada storyline disebalik gambar tu..! bukan apa.. aku baru saja digelar temanwanita kepada seorang daripada teman mereka jadi kita dah jadi coverstory untuk blog tu.. terima kasih semua.. buat susah ajer letak gambar ni semua.. dah gitu takper, diberinya aku nama baru..! takper.. no matter what, aku tetap DeE..!

it may come as a shock to some of my friends but this is what i have choosen.. this is my decision.. don't ask..

lagi satu perkara yang aku hairan.. kenapa si NeLL tu perasan tak habis-habis eh? aper segala yang aku buat semuanya tak kena dengan dia.. i'm sure you guys will say buat bodoh sudah & memang aku buat bodoh tapi menyakitkan hati tau kadang-kadang.. macam semalam.. aku tukar tag MSN aku sebab sHaM degil.. dah degil takper, tiba-tiba jadi gila..! kebetulan, si NeLL pon log in.. dia baca tag aku, dia pon feeling-feeling lah yang aku nak kena kan dia.. padahal, aku ajukan tu semua buat sHaM.. tak tau malu eh? bila aku main lagu I'm Back at On D' Radio dia kata aku sengaja nak sakitkan hati dia lah, aku nak kenakan dia lah.. dia fikir aku banyak masa nak buat kerja-kerja bodoh ni? GROW UP LAH NELL..! GET A LIFE..!

oklah.. sekejap lagi aku nak keluar, nak pergi interview.. harap-harap dapat kerja.. tak suka lah duduk rumah hari-hari kena bising.. lagipon aku nak jumpa kawan lama favourite aku..! aZMaN..! lama sey tak jumpa dia.. ada baik nya aku keluar sekarang.. nanti lambat pulak..

macam-macam happenin..


020206
one of the most enjoyable days i've had lately.. it still felt the same like how it was 3 years ago.. just the 4 of us.. crappin, laughin and most importantly enjoyin each other's company.. thank you s|z, FFiZ & FiE for reminicin the gd old times.. pictures will be up soon.. ouh btw, check out s|z's blog for more of the karaoke pics..

my favourite Levis 599 is torn..! my comfort jeans.. my companion.. *SiGh* now i need to find a new somethin for solace..

alright, back to work/school people..


lucky for me.. my class is tmr.. khehehe~ so that's an extra day off for me..

HAPPY 22nd BIRTHDAY TO MY DARLIN' COUZ..! *SiGh* THE cousin.. yeah.. the one with 1 kid & another on the way.. the one who got MARRIED before i did.. khehehe~ well, i still love you NaNDa.. MARRIED or not..

anyway, it's so contradictin.. i sent out a notice to all my On D' Radio crew informin them that i won't be able to go on air for abt 2 weeks but i HAVE been on air yesterday & the day before..! ahahaha..! can't help it.. i miss dj-ing & i feel that yesterday was the best so far.. RuSHy was on air from 8.00 - 9.30, i took over from 10.00 - 12.00 & then iDHaM took over from 1.00 - 2.30.. On D' Radio: 7 1/2 hrs non-stop..! wOw..! i loved it..!



i can't wait for tmr..! i have a DATE with my BaBy GerL, FFiZ & FiE.. don't know if it's gonna be just like old times but however it's gonna be, i am so lookin foward for tmr..!

hhmmm.. just a quick UPDATE for the friends who are curious abt what's goin on between me & my teman baru.. we are just friends.. JUST FRIENDS..! period. fullstop. no dates whatsoever, no hogging on the phone late at night & aper-aper lagi yg you all fikirkan.. ok? *SmiLeZ*

its 'HisHaM'


yeap.. i asked him how his name was spelled.. khehehe~ so silly of me..

i decided to do something EXTRAORDINARY yesterday.. i picked out a song to sing..! believe it or not..! ahahaha... well, they clapped & cheered [thank you.. *bLusH*] but then they all fell silent.. made me feel so awkward.. but on the whole, we all enjoyed ourselves, didn't we? i look foward to meetin these bunch of fun people again.. *SmiLeZ*

reached Bedok at abt 12.15.. kindda late considerin that i made a curfew of 11.00 for myself.. took us almost 20 minutes to find the Central Square carpark entrance.. it's all sHaM's fault..! khehehe~ made us walk round & round the whole place..! ouh yeah.. we manage to take a snap before we left the carpark.. khehehe~



hey..! don't get the wrong ideas guys.. it's just a picture, ok? *WiNkZ*

ouh & by the way, "SELAMAT TAHUN BARU" to all my Muslim friends..

Happy Chinese New Year


to all my friends celebratin this occasion.. *SmiLeZ*

did i tell you guys about how i scored 5 points [or was that 2 points..?] for my group in my TPSW class? yes i did score.. by reading the 'Peter Piper' tongue twister..! khehehe..~ i loved it..! ouh by the way, i passed my SBS paper with a 'C'..! Yeah.! i'm now eagerly waitin for my HMC result.. i know i've already passed that paper but i wanna know my grade.. can't wait..!

anyway, i wanna THANK [with sarcasm..] my dear big sister aBBie for draggin me to her boyfriend [BeN] & friends' chalet yesterday.. so much for the "HELP-ME-I-DON'T-KNOW-ANYONE!" excuse.. i really thought you didn't know anyone there.. YOU SET ME UP..! how could you..? how could you match make me with your friend, HiSyaM [or HisHaM.. however his name is spelled..!] you sneaky pair?! not that i'm angry but seriously i was SO embarrassed..! & to make things worse, your friends ALL knew about it includin HiSyaM/HisHaM..! you kept me in the dark..! I am so gonna wring your necks..! but he's a nice chap though.. sweet.. funny.. well in short, he makes a gd friend.. *WiNkZ*

i can expect a lot of assumptions from you guys who've read that entry at the top.. i know some will think that i'm datin him, some will think that i'm a flirt.. etc.. etc.. etc.. WHATEVER.. i have a clear conscience.. anyway, i'll be back.. gotta go change.. he's fetchin me at 1915 hrs later & we're gonna go meet up with aBBie, BeN & their friends for KARAOKE-ing..! khehehe..~

sky's kindda blue..


went to IKEA the day before yesterday.. bought some stuff for the room.. i love how it looks now.. much neater than before.. maybe that's what happen when you feel like crap & you need to distract yourself.. it cheered me up though.. *SmiLeZ*

met up with the person whose feelings i've hurt so bad.. i don't wanna mention names.. well, if you already know who then it's best you keep it to yourself.. i feel bad over what happened but i can't force myself.. it feels better now that we've cleared the air but it doesn't feel the same.. i think i need time to get over this..

had a fun day in TPSW class yesterday.. my assignment's on VOCATION[S] & i think i'm gonna do about Radio Producer/Presenter.. well, maybe.. i bought 2 double cheeseburgers 1 each for aLeXiS & myself for dinner but the girl who served me gave me an extra cheeseburger..! khehehehe~ on my way back home from school, i bumped into aDi, one of the arab guys i got to know 5 mths back @ cHeeky mOnkey's.. kHaLeeD's couz.. hhmmm.. haven't seen them for quite sometime [& I DON'T WISH TO SEE THEM AGAIN..!]..

gonna be busy with the school assignments on hand.. i haven't start my write up with aBg FiQuE for On D' Radio since he's SO busy.. what do you expect? he's 'Singapore's Fav Guy', isn't he? whatever.. but i miss him too.. ouh & i need to be more active with On D' Radio very soon.. haven't been on air for quite a while now & i miss it..

skies shall be blue.. i know it will..

sorry & miserable.. pick 'em up


i feel really bad.. i told dat sumone the truth & dat person didn't take it good..

damn it.. F^CK..!

i really haf no intention to hurt your feelin.. i swear..! i juz can't be wit you.. not bcuz of your background or your past or wateva it is dat you assumed.. i juz can't.. i lyk you.. i really do but i don't have the feelings for you..

thanx sTeVe for dinner & the organizer insert..
thanx aLeXis for comfortin me yesterday..
thanx to "Breakfast at Tiffany's" for lullin me to sleep..

i'm LOVIN' it..!


i LOVE TPSW class..!
i LOVE mR NaiDu..!
i LOVE the way he speaks..!

well i juz luv everythin abt it.. it's as cool as TDMC class.. no.. WAY, WAY much cooler than TDMC.. khehehehe..~ happens dat the cute guy in TDMC class is in TPSW as well & unfortunately, he's in the same HMC class wit aLeXiS.. darn it.. oh well.. he's prolly younger den me.. not into younger guys.. sorry..!

juz a breakdown of the abbreviation:

HMC - Human & Mass Communications
TDMC - The Dynamics of Mass Communications
TPSW - Techniques of Professional Speaking & Writing

aniwae, i'm runnin away fr sumthin dat i shud face up to.. i noe it shud be dealt wit as early as possible but i juz dunno how to.. i haf to tell DAT SUMONE how i truly feel & not lead dat person on.. nOpe.. dun worri sTeVie.. it's not u.. *WiNkZ*

"HAPPY 3rd YEAR ANNIVERSARY TO MY BaBy GerL & FiZZ..!"

ok, i shall go now.. gotta tink of "iDa the Destroyer & Friends" series & prolly go disturb GreGGy at the same tym.. peace out..

reunion


started my 1st class for the new term yesterday.. kindda lyk a reunion.. there was HaaS, sHikiN, HaZeL, TeRRi, syaHiDaH, aiSyaH & me.. ohh.. & some other familiar faces.. *WiNkZ* i lyk the class cuz mR JaiLani's the lecturer & i tink he's cool..

now i'm at hm, tinkin over some stuffs.. i have a lot of confessions & rejections to make.. *SiGh*.. well i'll write in again.. MuM brought a fren hm.. gonna go make tea.. later guys..

lady rain..


it has been a wet, wet week.. very sad..

i realised i've gained 6 kilos [NO...!!!] & now i'm fat & ugly.. not forgettin jobless & helpless [make dat HOPEless..] i already put myself on a strict 'no-chocolate' diet & i'm tryin not to eat too much..

it's really tough lukin for a job everywhr.. luck is really not on my side.. stupid of me.. really.. badly in nid of a job ryt now.. can't stand askin BaBa for money everytym i nid it.. it pisses him off & i noe it.. anyone can help me..? please..?

in confusion now actually.. i dunno wat i'm supposed to do wit all these guys in my lyf.. i wanna live w/o them.. can i..? mayb i shud haf a heart to heart talk wit FiE.. settle things once & for all.. i noe MY BABY GERL wud lyk dat.. khehehe..

oh.. & btw, juz to make things clear, I AIN'T NOBODY'S SCANDAL AITE.. get dis clear in dat small brain of urs.. u shud noe hu u r..

exam.. [deja vu]


sittin for my last paper later at 2pm.. head's spinnin, stomach's achin, eye's stoned.. wat cud be worst..? headphones on, hoobastank's playin.. *SiGh* tryin to adapt to exams once again.. i noe it's too late cuz it's the last paper but i've gotta get used to it cuz i've got another 3 more terms to go thru..

last saturday's meetin wuz a breather for me.. i mean after the rough rides, i wuz really lukin foward to the meetin.. well more lyk meetin familiar faces dat i've not meet before & not met for a long tym.. hhmmm... wuz assigned as an editor together wit TiaRa.. gonna be fun..! my BaBy gerL & me..

things lukin fine here at home & i'm beginnin to luv it.. no matter wat, FAMILY COMES FIRST..

lemme juz gif a recap of the event dat started my misery till now..

230805 wuz the date dat he broke off the relationship.. i dunno y but i wuz SO INTO HIM.. mayb bcuz of the things dat we've been thru together dat made the relationship very, very special & meaningful to me.. i wuz SO ready to settle down wit him cuz i've almost totally changed myself for the better for my family, for him & myself.. i changed my job for stability reasons, i stopped my bad habits & picked up gd ones for the relationship but in the end it didnt werk out..

bcuz i wuz so into the relationship
- my job got affected & i left..
- my BEST FREN OF 5 YRS gave up on me..
- i almost wrecked my family ties..
- i made frens worried..
- i went into isolation, kept late nyts sumtyms not slpin for 2 days straight, comin hm late almost everyday, cried my eyes out to slp..

in short i wuz damagin my health.. now i only haf my family, close frens & my skul.. do you think i can keep it together?

Happy 2006 Everyone..


juz wanna wish everyone a very happy 2006.. may the new yr bring happier moments & events to everyone..

things r not ridin dat well for me.. i wanna go back but my stubborness is juz being itself.. i miss MuM but i miss aYuL the most.. damm it..

i'm havin my 1st paper at 2pm later.. i'm supposed to be slpin but here i am updatin my blog.. i wanna continue but i tink i'll do dat in the later part of the day.. my brain suddenly froze on me.. nid to hang out my laundry aniwae.. so many things yet so little tym & so little brain activity.. update again soon..

LETTER FOR A SISTER..


SO U SAY U GUYS CARE? R U SURE? HAVE U GUYS EVER GIF A TOT ABT HOW I WOULD FEEL OR TINK..? HAF U GUYS EVER REALISED DAT I AM FAMILY..? U GUYS TINK I DO WATEVER I DID WITOUT TINKIN RYT..?I BET U DO.. WELL I DUN.. I HAF MY REASONS Y I DUN FOLLOW THE RULES AT HM..

SO U SAY DAT HE CARES & LUVS ME MORE DEN ANY OF U GUYS? R U SURE? HU IS THE ONE DAT HE DOTES UPON ALL THE TYM? HU IS THE ONE HU DOESNT GET SCOLDIN FOR SCORIN BADLY IN THE EXAMS? WUZ DAT ALL ME..? I DUN TINK SO.. COUNT URSELVES LUCKY DAT BOTH UR CHILDHOODS WUZ MORE COLOURFUL DEN MYN.. COUNT URSELVES LUCKY DAT U DIDNT HAF TO FACE THE CANE EVERY SINGLE DAY OF UR CHILDHOOD.. SKUL FEES..? HE TOLD ME HE'S NO LONGER PAYIN FOR MY SKUL FEES.. THANX A LOT.. I WILL TRY TO FIND MY MEANS, I'LL TINK OF SUMTHIN.. U WANT ME TO PONDER ABT Y I BLAME HIM WEN I MADE A MISTAKE..? HU'S THE ONE HU MADE THE MISTAKE IN THE 1ST PLC..? SO HE TINKS DAT I DIDN'T LUK FOR A JOB..? TINK AGAIN.. U TINK I LYK ASKIN HIM FOR MONEY..? ALL THROUGHOUT MY ENTIRE SKUL LIFE UP TILL O'BRIENS, HAF I EVER TROUBLED HIM FINANCIALLY..? EVEN WEN HE BORROWED FR ME, HAF I EVER ASKED FOR IT BACK..? PLEASE PONDER & TELL ME.. I'M JUZ CURIOUS.. Y DOES HE LYK TO PICK ON ME..? I MEAN, WAT IS PAST HAS PASSED.. I'M NO LONGER THE PERSON I WUZ BEFORE SO Y IS HE STILL PICKIN ON ME..? SO MANY TYMS I'VE CHANGED JUZ SO WE WON'T FIGHT BUT THERE IS ALWAYS SUMTHIN ABT ME DAT BOTHERS HIM SO MUCH DAT HE HAS TO QUARREL WIT ME..

I LUV HER A LOT.. EVEN IF SHE DOESN'T TREAT ME AS WELL AS SHE TREATS U, I STIL LUV HER.. EVEN WEN SHE DOESN'T WANNA TALK TO ME LYK HOW SHE TALKS TO U, I STIL LUV HER.. EVEN WEN SHE DOESN'T COME TO MY DEFENSE WEN HE BEATS ME UP LYK CRAP, I STIL LUV HER.. EVEN WEN SHE ALMOST MADE ME A CRIPPLE & BROKE MY BACK, I STIL LUV HER.. IT'S NOT THE PRESENTS DAT I WAN ON MY B'DAY, I JUZ WANNA BE TREATED JUZ AS EQUAL..

I TRIED TO BOND WIT HIM CUZ HE'S MY BROTHER.. I LUV HIM CUZ HE'S THE ONLY BROTHER I HAF.. I HAF NVR TREAT HIM BAD.. I DUN TINK I EVER DID.. I KIP MY DISTANCE AT TYMS BCUZ I DIDN'T WAN TO INFLUENCE HIM IN ANY BAD WAY.. HE'S THE ONE HU DOESN'T WANNA TALK TO ME.. HE'S THE ONE HU DOESN'T WANNA OPEN UP.. I WATCHED BOTH OF U GROW UP & IT DOESN'T BOTHER ME DAT U GUYS R CLOSE CUZ DATS HOW U GUYS HAF BEEN SINCE SMALL.. IT MAKES ME VERY HAPPY JUZ TO C THE BOTH OF U CLOSE.. I DUN ASK FOR MUCH..

I SWEAR I LUV U THE MOST OF ALL THE MEMBERS IN THE HSE.. U NOE I DO.. EVEN WEN U DUN COME TO MY RESCUE WEN I NEEDED U, I STIL LUV U.. I HAF NVR DISCRIMINATED U & I'M FLATTERED TO HEAR DAT U LUK UP TO ME ALTHO I NOE I'M JUZ A PIECE OF USELESS CRAP HU GETS ON EVERYONE'S NERVES & MAKE THEIR BLOOD BOIL.. TINK OF ALL THE TYMS I'VE COVERED UR ASS WEN U GOT INTO TROUBLE.. U NOE I WON'T LET ANYONE LAY A FINGER ON U.. NOT EVEN DAD.. WAT'S THE USE OF HAVIN THE BRAINS BUT NOBODY CARES..? I DUN CARE HOW OR WAT U R, U R STIL MY SISTER HU I LUV VERY MUCH & NO ONE CAN CHANGE DAT FACT.. WAT MAKES U TINK I BAD-MOUTHED U TO MY FRENS..? SUMTYMS I DO SAY NASTY THINGS BUT U NOE I DUN MEAN DEM & I SAY DEM SUMTYMS SO DAT U REALISE DAT U SHUD STOP LIVIN IN MY SHADOWS & B URSELF.. I CANNOT BE THERE FOR U ALL THE TYM & BACK U UP.. IT'S NOT DAT I DUN WANNA SHARE SECRETS WIT U BUT LUK AT URSELF IN THE MIRROR & TINK.. EVERYTYM I SHARE SUMTHIN WIT U, U ALWAYS SAY ALL THE NEGATIVE THINGS & U ALWAYS PUT ME DOWN.. HOW DO U TINK I FEEL..?

U GUYS ALWAYS BLAME ME FOR EVERTHIN DAT HAPPENS IN THE HSE.. HAF U ALSO STOPPED TO TINK WAT U GUYS HAF DONE..? OR SHUD I SAY HAF NOT DONE..? I'M THE BAD APPLE IN THE HSE.. I'M THE ONE HU 'BROKE-UP' THE FAMILY.. I'M THE ONE HU'S CAUSIN THE TROUBLE.. HAF U GUYS TOT ABT Y I BECAME LYK DAT..? IT'S SO EZ FOR U TO POINT UR FINGERS AT ME BUT HAF U ALSO SEEN WAT I HAF DONE FOR THE FAMILY..?

PLEASE.. I WANNA GO HOME.. I WAN EVERYTHIN TO BE NORMAL.. IS IT SO HARD..?

Merry Christmas..!


yeah.. i dun celebrate x'mas but Merry X'mas aniwae.. haf been takin dis tym to slack.. i mean rest at hm.. khehehe~

aniwae, before i forget, i better jot down my resolutions sumwhr.. well here goes, in the order of importance..

1 - get myself a job
2 - pay off my bills
3 - get my drivin license
4 - complete my Diploma course
5 - FINALLY find a REAL guy to settle down wit..

speakin of settle down, it's Karima's weddin tdy.. congratulations.. *WiNkZ*

dis is gonna be one memorable new year.. exactly a yr back, east coast, sittin by the beach, countin down till new year's day, HE proposed.. *SiGh* gotta do sumthin on new year's eve.. kip myself distracted fr those tots.. well, i'll be back later.. gonna watch sum tv..

my 'WAN'derful Grandma..


171205
0700hrs - Headed out. only had 2 person in mind at dat moment of tym n strangely, one of dem was NeLL.. geez.. why? I dunno.. juz kindda miss him after the msn conversations we xchanged of late.. crappy, nonsensical buddy of myn.. hehe..

1000hrs - Met my Uncle Man & headed straight to Auntie Yam's [aka aYuL's MuM] plc.. found out they were building new semi-ds ard her area & my parents r now in discussion to buy a hse there.. geez [again].. slacked till late & BaBa says we're goin to Auntie Sham's plc in Malacca next..

2230hrs - Reached Auntie Sham's plc.. slpy.. *YaWn* hhmmpphh.. no comments.. slpy.. really..

181205
1102 - Juz woke up.. reached Grandma's at 0130 dis morning.. everyone tried wakin me up but I juz pretended dat I didn't hear dem.. hehe.. I'm achin all over.. oh well..

1612 - All set now.. we're headin to Ulu Bentong, a 15 mins drive fr Grandma's.. I dunno how to describe the plc but u'll c it in the pics later..

1900 - Back.. Very tired but had a great tym.. ;) hehehe~ the water wuz darn cold..! almost froze wen my feet touched the water..

191205
1000 - Hmm.. an hr earlier den ystrday.. we're goin visitin tdy.. heard there's a possibility we're goin hm tdy.. hhmmm...

1645 - We're at Grandma's 2nd sister's hse, 1/2 an hr ride fr her plc.. been here since 1400.. myt not be goin hm tdy.. sadness..

201205
0750 - Awake.. WoW..! hehehe~ & no one woke me up.. ;) guess the excitement is too overwhelmin.. can't wait to be back..

1140 - Got back fr class.. [i went straight to class the moment we reached mind u..] saw my frens online.. I MISH U GUYS..!

40.0 degrees..


YEAH..! assignments all done & submitted..! FINALLY..

found out dat now many ppl has dis perception dat i'm datin RuSHy.. oh dear.. RuSHy.. RuSHy.. he makes it so real dat i dunno how i'm gonna get out of dis one.. hmmm...

i did sumthin silly last saturday.. wuz so pissed wit HIM at hm dat i took off & went drinkin.. bodoh kan? a drink too many & there i wuz, flyin witout wings... hehehehe~ BUT i did not trouble anyone.. thank goodness.. sober up in the afternoon at abt 3pm & felt zombie-ish.. broke one of my pacts.. sheesh.. things lukin rough for me.. no HP, no internet [sumtyms, at hm..] & no one at hm [but my sis] is talkin to me for some reason.. *SiGh*

haf been eatin a lot lately.. hung out wit sTeve, GreG & aLeXis a lot toO.. speakin of which, GreG leaves on the 20th.. funny fella.. hehehe~ gonna miss him wen he's gone.. felt feverish last wednesday & yesterday was a high of 40.0 degrees.. felt better tdy & temp is currently at 37.2 as i type dis.. aniwae, leavin for grandma's at 10 later.. will b back on the 20th, hopefully in tym for SBS class..

aite gonna leave u guys wit pics of MORE food..!

assignments.. tsk..




yeap.. dats my shoe's heel.. it came off even before i went for the hari raya outin wit aYuL, her guy & his frens... hehehe~

aniwae, met up wit sTevie & DaVe yesterday for dinner.. well, DaVe got sort-of promoted so i asked him for a treat.. hehe~ thick-skinned me.. thank u guy for dinner.. njoyed myself very much & thank u sTevie for the indepth tots on SPGs..

my assignments ARE NOT COMPLETED YET..!!! AARRRGGGHHH..!! stressed out wit no job, no luv, no life.. aniwae, i shall leave u peeps wit the food we had yesterday..

Beef Rendang


BBq Stingray


Chap Chye


[The Not-So-Tasty] Soon Hock with Soya & Garlic Sauce

fill 'em up


so many things, so little lines.. bear wit me guys..

the suckiest Raya so far.. pictures up so help urself to the sad little pictures.. it wuz so sucky dat i went out wit aYuL's frens [erm.. actually aYuL's guy's skulmates..] who we dun noe.. but thanx aniwae SiS for being so thoughtful.. luv u lots.. to all frens: next yr aite..? disappointment.. aniwae, attended dJ RuSHy's open hse on the 26th last mth.. thanx RuSH..

MuM's buggin me abt marriage.. no Ma, u betta stop it.. i'm not gettin married [yet..] cuz i'm not ready.. damm.. she's scarin me wit the 'M' word.. she kips tinkin dat HeLMy [my SBS classmate] is my guy wen he actually is not.. Ma, reali, stop it.. i mean it..! speakin of which, classes r almost comin to the end.. Human & Mass Communication [HMC] class will end on the 12th & Social Behavioural Studies [SBS] class will end on the 23rd.. i haf a very long way to get my diploma & after which i'm tinkin of continuin wit the advanced diploma.. *SiGh*

found a part-tym job juz for this december.. helpin out at a gift/flower shop as an admin asst.. betta den nuthin ryt..? i finally handed over my SingPost werk pass & collected the remains of my stuff back at the office.. suddenly, i miss the plc, my pals at werk & especially my best fren, iDaDi..

went to watch Chicken Little [he's kindda cute..] wit HeLMy juz now & after which we went to esplanade to catch Lovehunters' performance.. damm..! the vocalist [yaZiD] literally took my breath away..! swept me off my feet..! *DrooLs..* hehehe~ he wuz gd, well the trio wuz gd.. WoW..! wud luv to c him perform again.. met up wit aYuL & NaD & headed hm after..

suddenly most of my ex-es r in contact wit me.. hhmmm..

- FiE
- FaiZaL [mD]
- aZHaR
- NaS [well i wudn't consider him but can also lah..]